I'm Done

Ok, let's get it overwith..it's been awhile. A LONG while. But life happens, and here I am, again. Typing aimlessly in this big white box.

The last few weeks have been quite a ride. Caught up with some old friends. Made some new ones. Rode in my truck with my daughter behind the wheel for the first time. And made a decision....

I'm Done.

No, not what you think. I'm Done, as in the words of Tracy Lawrence "I’m done harborin grudges and nursin old wounds. Done clingin to crutches and singin the blues". This is a line in the chorus to his AMAZING song, "I'm Done". The first verse is, well, I will let it speak for itself--"Life hit me when I wasn’t lookin. It dealt me a hard hand to play. I felt betrayed and forsaken. I’ve been makin the wrong people pay" Can I get an A-Men?!? Go ahead, admit it. Have a fit. Yell at God.

Now. Get Over It. Cuz that's where I'm at. Time, energy, thoughts, feelings, words, actions, resources spent on the past are a big fat WASTE! Think about it. If someone was disrespectful enough to hurt your feelings in the first place, are they really gonna care if you hold a grudge against them? Think their stomach churns at the thought of you being mad at them? Think they are losing sleep? Think they spend their days planning an apology? Yea, me neither.

We may think that by holding that grudge we are doing ourselves a big favor by not allowing that person to hurt us again...REALITY CHECK....that grudge is a wall we build which not only keeps the "bad guys" out, but also prevents new people from entering our world. Hold enough grudges and soon where a picket fence once stood, you now have a brick wall. It can get pretty lonely behind a brick wall. Who wants to be alone?

Many factors drove me to this decision to cut the strings. One is the following quote, from a dirt track driver:
"It might not be my weekend, but it's gonna be my year" - Landon Cassill via twitter.com

How insightful is THAT?!?! I might not like my past, but I am going to make sure to enjoy the present and LOVE my future. Before I do, I'm going to indulge in one last regret...and that is that I did not come to this realization MUCH MUCH sooner...oh the things I might have missed.

Going back to the song by Tracy Lawrence..."I'm greetin each morning with a smile and a prayer"

Anyone else ready to join me in throwing in the towel?....

See you on the outside!
CeeKay