Dreams

As defined at dictionary.com:

dream 
/drim/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [dreem] Show IPA noun, verb, dreamed or dreamt, dream⋅ing, adjective
–noun; an aspiration; goal; aim: A trip to Europe is his dream.

We've all had 'em right? Lotto jackpot. Cancer cure. Rockstar. Superhero. Mom. Dad. Wife. Dr. Lawyer. Athlete. Movie Star. Prom Queen. State Championship. Peace. Freedom. Love.

That list is pretty broad, yet, I bet each of them has been on your list at one time or another...I know most of them have been on mine. Okay, not dad, but that's obvious. When I think about how my dreams have changed over the course of my thirty-some years my life, I am reminded of the message in the following lyrics:

it was a passing grade, a pretty girl/all the money in the world/what mattered then kept changing every day-All I Ask For Anymore, Trace Adkins

Got you right in the gut, huh? Yeah, me too. Hey, it happens to the best of us. Funny how the truth has a way of doing that...no matter the subject, whenever the truth is spoken our hearts skip a beat, we lose our breath for a minute and we do a gut check. With my baby getting ready to start her Sophomore year at High School and my step daughter her Junior year and stepson his Freshman year, there has been a lot of talk about dreams around our house lately. We have a doctor, a physical therapist and an I don't know....as of last week. All of which are subject to change--see above song lyrics.

My husband and I always do our best to encourage our kids with their endeavors--sports, girl/boyfriends, learning to drive, career choices, school, work--I guess we are at the beginning stages of giving them their wings. (Not a fan of this stage, for the record-cuz I know ya'll were wondering). Today, as I sat helplessly on the couch, watching my gurl struggling with the affects of having her wisdom teeth removed, I found myself reflecting on how her dreams have had a huge influence on mine. It seems, for the past 15 years, her dreams have become my dreams. Perhaps that's a mother's love or perhaps, I just don't have the energy(or the attention span) to support two different dreams--especially when they are changing day by day. --again, see above lyrics.

As I watched the pain medication do its job-turning her pain into peace-I began to wonder if I was doing my job, as a mom, by simply encouraging her dreams? Gut check I mean, since birth I have been told, all together now, : actions speak louder than words. Right? Riiiiiight. My daughter has seen me chase a few dreams in her lifetime, but not achieve many of them--always making sacrifices for others at the expense of my own dreams. One of those blessing/curse traits. Gotta love em. Nonetheless, I've decided to take action.

For those of you who are still reading--thank you! Here is the point of this rambling--some recent relationships have inspired me to pursue a dream--this time, all the way. I'm kinda fragile (shocking, I know!), so I've only shared my latest dream with a select few. Whew! You sure find out who your friends are when you reveal something so personal. To those of you who have not done so recently, may I encourage you to take a good long, hard look at who you count among your friends. Something I have done--trying to stay true to that old cliche. Had enough gut checks for awhile. Before you get all the way to the end and decide to HATE me, I am NOT going to be revealing my latest pursuit out here in cyberland. So, if that's why you are still reading, sorry. I will, however, plant some seeds.

• I'm a people person. (no shocker to those who know me, and prob not to some who don't)
• I like helping others. (see above)
• I love sports.
• I love music.
• I liked school, but have not completed a college degree-yet.
• I'm a gadget freak.
• I love technology.
• I love to write-when I'm inspired.

So, there you have it. Some of the pieces of the puzzle to my latest dream. I hope to be able to take you all along on this journey with me. Gonna be a long one, but I'm not stopping until I get there. Before i go, I want to thank a few friends, old and new, who have encouraged me with my latest vision. They are: Frog, ML, KP, RM, BG, JG, KK, LJ--I hope to add to this list as I continue my trek. Oh, and to those who have laughed at me....ask yourself why you did so....are you not brave enough to chase your own dreams? If so, I am very sorry. With faith, hope and a little bit of luck, anything IS possible. Life is way too short to live any other way...

I might get there, I might not...one thing is for sure--I am going to enjoy the ride!

Stay tuned....
CeeKay
"Sorrow looks back, worry looks around, FAITH looks up"